Anxiety comes before Vulnerability.

I am normally a confident person. But something about the process of writing, editing, and publishing has brought out some interesting insecurities in me. I couldn’t nail it down, or where it was coming from, until I finally realized it. I’ve been reaching out to reviewers and trying to prepare myself for my first negative review, (because let’s be honest, it’s gonna happen,) when I figured out why I was feeling this anxiety.

Vulnerability.

Even though this is a fictitious story that takes place in some fictitious places, I put so much of myself in this story. In some weird way, I feel like I’m laid bare on these pages. And the idea that someone might not like it… or like me… makes me feel a bit anxious. But that is what happens when we create art of any kind, right? We put little pieces of our soul in our work, that is what makes it good. At least that is what I hope makes it good. πŸ™‚

I know this is a part of the process, but it’s new territory for me. Thankfully, I came across a quote on an Instagram feed.

elberthubbardtoavoidcriticism

It’s so true, and it’s a great reminder. Because we were not made to do nothing, say nothing, or be nothing. We were made to create, so we must be able to handle criticism.

I would love to hear how you guys are feeling about the things you are working on. What are you creating or doing that makes you feel vulnerable?Β Is this something that you struggle with from time to time as well?

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3 thoughts on “Anxiety comes before Vulnerability.

  1. When I finished my first manuscript, people told me to brace myself–to develop a thick skin. But I’m a tough chick. “Don’t worry about me,” I said. I understand your feelings of vulnerability and anxiety. Every facet of me is splayed on every page of my novel. I don’t like that at 38, I still require validation for my work. I do accept it though, as part of the process, and I wouldn’t have it any other way. I wish well. I can’t wait to read your book. 😊

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